THE SEARCH FOR ABSOLUTE FREEDOM

Sitting on the edge of the cliff with his eyes gazing above on the starry universe ,his inner soul gets wet wit divine joyous tears just to feel the fact that he is a part of that vast majestic mystic shining existence.And he peeks down below and can see the city in silence with bright blocks of lights stacked above one another, flocks of human running across the street,childrens playing in the distant just to realize how infinitesimally small each activity and things feels when compared to the beautiful vastness he witnessed above. He now wants to meet the angel of freedom ,absolute freedom and wishes some sort of spaceship shall carry him into the vastness though it was not possible.Slowly with the bright visions of the vastness his eyes closes down and  lifts him from the cliff ,then to the space and to the stars leaving behind his mortal shell.

   The idea of absolute freedom seems to be of vague to me. As freedom cannot be measured in degree but can only be realized on comparative terms, the idea becomes subjective. Our outward material existence can never attain absolute freedom and a try to do so shall result in chaos and conflict with other people’s idea of freedom. Hence restrictions which are a summation of all those conflicting domains are imposed leaving behind only those freedoms which do not infringe on other people’s freedom. Freedom as such can be thought in its absolute state but can never be practiced in its absoluteness.

            On the contrary a deep reflection on inner soul perhaps gives a ray of hope that such a state can truly be achieved. I had a firm believe that what becomes of a human being is a result of circumstances and environments through which he has been exposed to and there is no escape from that. But gradually it became clear that a person is also influenced by how his inner core is coping up with circumstance and environment.

            We perceive every idea, thoughts, things and beings through our eyes and minds by means of sensation and feeling that can only be seen through ourselves and we may actually never know the elements in its entirety or it may be different in the eyes of another human. The idea of every essential elements like happiness, sorrows , suffering, excitement etc in outward material existence is comparative and hence absolute state cannot be achieved but in inner spiritual world these may attain absolute state as inner happiness ,sorrows and all are practices and processes that   can only be perceived if we open bare our bodily existence.

            There is always an objective representation of an idea ,feelings, emotions etc. and in modern civilization every idea or feeling is more and more represented by an object or thing. Hence the ideas, feelings, emotions etc like objects become comparative and considering the vastness of material existence in this world, the domain of comparison becomes larger and larger.

            A well built cottage in some parts of the world may be an objective representation of well being, success, luxury, happiness etc. and similarly a massive bungalow in another part of the urban world may reflect the same. The environment , surroundings and circumstances around these two contrasting living blocks throws upon a state of objective comparison on the eyes of the inhabitants and in comparative degree based on the benchmark of existing housing block in the surrounding the idea of success, happiness etc is perceived. Now though the building blocks may be of huge contrast but a study on the inhabitants will show that the fulfillment of purpose does not differ greatly as their objective representation. In fact and ironically the sensation of happiness may be more in the cottage blocks as the degree of comparison is limited in that surrounding whereas the comparitive element in that urban space are changing frequently and going into vastness. But in both the cases there is never a state of absoluteness in freedom of happiness, suffering ,emotion etc as these ideas precedes objects or things.

            In our journey towards absolute freedom it is perfectly clear that the outer bodily existence can only attain and cherish certain freedoms bestowed upon them by the authority through carefull study of conflicts of interest. Now for a human being to attain absolute freedom the doors of inner spiritual world has to be opened .

            To realize what absolute freedom may look like it shall be necessary to create a situation where a human being is robbed of all his freedoms for an indefinite time such that now his only aim will be to survive ,a state of primitive existence and survival where he has to fight for his hunger . A originally primitive man shall survive ,learn and adapt to the situation and shall carry on. But a modern man will soon get tired out and attain a state of shock.For modern man the idea of future and hope plays a vital role for survival and their very absence will make his present existence meaningless. Thus his inner self will die before his outward existence.

            In such conditions when man is robbed off from his freedom till an indefinite time, the only escape will be shedding his bodily existence and flowing ahead through his inner conscious and spirit and a contemplation of actual soul of happiness and suffering. The happiness and suffering that has been in existence since eternity but in course of earth history being separated from man’s soul by constantly assigning them a value derived from objects. Now through his inner world illuminated man does not need any material representation to any emotion and thus diminishing material competition ,he can now directly touch the souls of happiness ,suffering ,excitement, grief ,madness ,trance etc. His life now transforms into a purpose where he question his existence, finds answer to them, creates meaning and finds freedom through his new created meanings, virtues and conscious.

 : Your Stagnant postulates shall be crushed by Storms of change :

Hypocrisy has engulfed the earth rotting it from the core with smells of decaying egoism, self proclaimed superiority,pseudo intellectualism .The modern man seems to understand all human psychology and string them together with his preconceived ideas postulated on the basis of observation that concerned on that particular era , circumstance , environment or people and ignoring the origin of all ideas. An intellectualism claiming dictatorship over every independent creativity and free thinking. The Priest telling Megallen not to go beyond the horizon or he shall fall from the earth. No! you were wrong Mr. Priest cause you did not have the heart that Lord gave you to see his creation in meditation or your heart may have been buried deep down in the gutters of supreme knowledge imprinted on you by your predecessors .You Dictators and guards of humanity  proclaimed freedom and the next day you lay fences and mines for any free soul should wander, he must be summoned and judged by the theories from your preconceived books of humanity and with each century you conspired with your diabolical mind to create the master morality and slave morality. Anyone who does not belong to either class or has the free will to think on those ‘not to think lines’ shall has to be tortured with instruments called the society where only extremities exist, either good or evil and where judgements are passed in a second not by logic but by power of the majority and designed carefully to grind the brain till all heavenly theories propagated by the master morality are imprinted like a programme that runs in loops and then they shall throw you on the cages of slave class. The slave class that has always ensured master morality should remain unquestioned as the very existence of all their ideas of happiness and emotion depends on the theories postulated by their master class. But the earth, the universe laughs silently on arrogance of mankind who does not have the idea of how the stream of time have eroded all out of time stagnant ideas for its must breed changes.Only that lasts are innocent smiles that spoke of every creation, the unjudgemental conversation communicated from the heart, the eyes that silently gazed on the mountains mesmerized by the mighty creation.And the man thought how grain size his existence have been in front of the creation and its phenomenon.  You the proclaimed dictators! Your programmes shall be eroded, your intellectualism will be burnt , you moral preachings will be washed  away and someday you shall be traped in your own stagnant ideas.Lord told you to flow in time and scatter what you gained on barren valleys and sow the seeds of change, a change that embraces the new and old .But alas ! to flow in time you have long left the boat of heart and its now pitch dark to be found again. You are to leave for those who escaped your conspiracy and went to the forbidden lands .But don’t you worry for you shall not be burnt in hell but dumped straight into public sewerage where some slaves created by you shall be looking at you strangely judging you on the theories postulated in your marketed book of humanity and he shall run the programmes imprinted where you will just be stinking insane person on the gutters as his output.

I see you my brothers

Once we were frozen together

On the womb of the mighty glacier

Prepared to flow in the streams of time

Through the whistling woods

Down the narrow valleys

Striking hard on the rocks

The rock of circumstances

There you disappeared my brothers

Onto some mysterious paths

Here I am now on the river of societies

I ain’t transparent now

Musk of dirt surrounds me

And I can’t see straight and clear

But sometimes the mountain breeze

Passes silently stroking my hair gently

Sharing love of my long lost brothers

Love that fore ever hover in the spectra

And we all shall finally dance

In the gigantic ocean

Waiting for turn to jump in sky

Relieved of dirt and sins

To fall like rain crystal and clear

Or glide as snow on to the mother glacier

The corpse of childhood

                          The corpse of childhood

And here we go round and round on the voyage of life. He crosses the mountains, the rivers ,the oceans and in the end finds what he wanted were given at the starting of his journey. The old man realizes as a child how jolly and imaginative he was,how everyday was different than the other day eagerly waiting for what the next day has in its stock, the world was a mystery to him to explore .But as he walked the path through the civilization all traces of originality derived by him from nature as an infant becomes corrupted by so called maturity. When happiness, violence, anger takes a whole lot of dimension and have a permanent but nuisance effect on the ocean of human conception. Who is more God fearing than a child? A God who looks over any injustice, a God who will punish the evil and make the earth a better place to be in. This God in matured form becomes for him a channel of achieving personal selfish gains, a God bribed daily in temples mosques churches with promises to serve him  even better if one or other selfish goal is achieved no matter if his other children gets destroyed. They fight for racial discrimination, religious intolerance, casteism. Ask a child what are these entities and he will have no clue, a supreme matured way to deny all categorical divide  and knowing only the ultimate goal i.e. God that looks into every injustice ,a god that is continuously trying to make the world a better place to flourish. They say every human has a trace of childhood deep buried in some   hidden corner of their heart. Whenever these hidden traces confront with the reality there are rays of unselfish happiness and pleasure but the traces are again buried soon for fear of being called immature. The sublime flowers, the affectionate shade of trees, the lofty mountains, the ever flowing river all has billions of memories soaked in the spirit of those who spent their life painting their beauty looking at it mysteriously as the child thinking beyond the road amiss where lies some strange land. Do we look at morning sun just for once or the first drops of rain that washes the dusty leaves or the sunset with the feathered creatures shadow on the orange sun. A black screen of monotonous existence blinds millions of those majestic events that passes everyday insulted by our ignorance. My conscious traces from memory the song “have you ever seen the rain” from CCR right now and I just ponder on the thought on when did I actually last noticed the rain alone watching it draining the thirsty earth. I can’t remember. But soon I remember the child waiting for the rains to come, projecting those handcrafted paper boats on micro streams on the roads and chasing them to their end drenched at the shower. Imagining every tiny wave and turns as mountains and valleys through which their boat shall pass even though they have not actually seen those mountains. There nature sits down on their soul and showers its beauty in the form of thrill and excitement .Now my childhood has died and in its dead rotten shell my adulthood grows feeding on decayed species of hereditary induced ferocious inhuman elements. But there still remain vestiges of soul from childhood that sometimes in a flash put life into the decayed corpse. I now want to play and play again till I get exhausted and feel asleep on the comfy pillows of infancy. I now want to laugh on silly things and not stop till my eyes are soaked with tears .Let me be again the way I am and accept whatever you are and if not fight with you and probably beat you or get thrashed and forget what happened the other day.I no more want to know all those I had learnt and let me be amazed with every sort of happenings as Bob Seger said “I wish I didn’t know now what I didn’t know then”

The idea of absolute nothing

                          

As my soul sat on a voyage through the ocean that spread to the endless horizon, through the wilds  that run thousand nautical ,through millions of light years into the boundless universe ,I found myself  turned back to my very existence. The idea of existence and destiny, as to many others, has always been a question of irony to me. And this very circumstance where destiny turns back to existence, I find myself turned to the idea of nothingness. Its really amazing that the word nothing has let me to think so much that factors of living had become insignificant to  me .there I stumble across  the word absolute and I discovered that everything is subjected to a scale whose index have been fixed according to certain comparative elements. So what is absolute. The day we find the right index of absolute ,all debates between good and bad, theist and atheist, devils and priest would come to an end. As logical arguments would be specified under certain known index ,the scope of argument would be specified on some known agenda of universally accepted ideas and thus the scope of multidimensional reasoning would stop.

 We all begin our journey from the same glacier and as we flow through the ages like a stream there are these rocks called circumstances that guides us along different direction. as we sail thousands of miles crashing into tons of rocks, we find ourselves oceans apart from those who started the voyage from the same glaciers. And we say he has gone too far or he has stayed far behind. Though actually we are all flowing continuously and nobody is far ahead or behind. Its just all have flown in separate course, some flown through the mighty green valleys, some through dense forests and so on. but in the long run nothing really matters as we all will eventually fall into the mighty ocean called death. And our death will be a grain size event with respect to the massive world.

Coming back to the idea of nothingness, I wonder what purpose are we serving here, why are we bothered with tons of emotions though even the greatest emotion is overcome by time, why we like to be social though we always fear society, why we complain about having to do same repetitive things everyday and still go for those things the next day? Here one might say since life has no meaning, what shall we do? Shall we repeat the endless process shown by our predecessors and like them fall into the ocean of death tired, bored and full of remorse or should we stop bothering everything and repent over the fact that life has no meaning?

The most logical idea for people who believe in nothingness or nihilism is to create their own meaning of life. Its like an empty canvas ,a symbol of nothingness and we may create our own image of life with the colours of our progressive thinking. A master stroke of creativity that has no boundary and is not corroded by the hand of monotonous repetitive phenomenon designed by the people who preceded us and practiced by those around us. a world where one’s creative existence is a question to preconceived ideas.

            GOD IS GETTING ALONE

God the real guardian has always been a symbol of irony to me. A statue of tyranny, illogical propaganda and difference monger though his theoretical definition signifies something of opposite nature .So most of my life god stayed as my loyal opposition. There was always a question in my mind, in the midst of all these illogical reasons to follow his dictatorship; there must be something divine about this hypothetical god. The symmetrical universe with all its components placed in every right place forces me to give a think and thus evolves a ray of belief for this hypothetical structure, though suppressed immediately by the volleys of pre existed concepts against this unseen.I began to try understanding his ironical nature and concluded that until any modern theorists proves to the remotest possibility of its dismissal,i have to give some thought about the concept of god.the way to belief in god should be directed through logical reasoning of his proposed ethics keeping in mind that the proposer is not  god but human beings like us.So by the standards of  evolution our civilization has gone through it should be evident that rituals ,rules ,practices of god should have regular amendments keeping in mind the present social, economical, psychological and environmental features. But thousands of primitive ethics and values with their old moral watchdogs has no sign of tolerance to human psychology that changes with every civilization and environment.God must be deaf or he is on a silent fast because everytime the elements of civilization undergoes a progressive change,one of his follower becomes his logical opposer. The reason being that the rusted closet of morals and ethics could not satisfy the rate of change of civilizational entity.And so god gets alone with every second passing with only surrounded by the adamant self proclaimed agents of him.

INTERPRETATION OF LAST NIGHT SUBCONSCIOUS INCIDENT

I dnt knw wheatr paulo coelho was right about omens in alchemist when i read it four years ago....i dnt knw have any clue abt interprtatn of a drm ....i haf bn backside to the existnce of god till knw ...bt a mere drmm lst ngt is forcing me to change my views....interpretatn of dreams is totally unfamiliar n uninterested to my brains ...bt in jst a momnt i realzd dat dre do exist a string of link betwn evry happnings in dis wrld applied to humans in my context.....its bcz d thngs i sawlast night might b calld in a way an omen as ths has links to various psychological phnomnon i hav bn obsevn in vry prsn's lyf ,dat i encountr ,wit a definte set of simpl lookn puzzls n inications whch haf surfaced in my heart but i hav unwillingly buryin thm to inexistnce ...bt al of a suddn al thse behavirial observtns n conclsns r tryn to mk sum snse n haf bn falln in ordr as if i haf opnd a pandraz box n dat too by a mere otrwse nonsensicl dream...one thing i m sre is sum dreams wit unfnishdconclsns r defintly relatd to ones lyf as ds may b due to querries evolvd in ones heart bt haf nt navigatd to hs brains fr d persns unwillngness or snse of fear....ds querries may indicate d probability of occurance or non occurance of certain evnts in future basd on decisn makn in d prsnt though d indctn may nt b grntd ....bt thx i didnt haf to stdy or resrch nythng to realize dat ....i haf bn atheist all my lyf though i m stll religiously atheist bt frm nw i am happily forcd to conceptualze in my mind dat drez sum natre god who is respnsble fr all ds unsn evnts ,emotns , conclsns, indictns ,regretn etc..i ll nt ask fr forgivns fr nt blievn in ds natre god as i feel refusal is btr dn blind faith....as fr nw dis natre god has cum to me thrgh slf realztn n nt herediterly as gods r mostly imported to one's mind by the later mentnd path...i thngs i haf bn wrtn r vry smpl n requires vry littl brain....but yes totally unused brains may nt undrstnd my intrprtatn of lst lght dream....